Category: Musings

Pack and Play


After almost two weeks of talking mainly to myself, plants, and inanimate objects, I need some socialization. Yes, an introvert just wrote that sentence. I too, am surprised. I’ve figured out that introversion is how I process the information I take in over time, but it doesn’t really define my personality type, now that my…

Life is hard


The wonderful thing about Google photos is that it sends you reminders of where you were x years ago and what you were doing. Well, sometimes it’s wonderful; other times, painful. Today it reminded me of where I was five years ago. I was camping, alone, down in Florida, under another full moon. I hiked…

“I’m all alone, with no one beside me..”(Donkey in Shrek)


And so it goes! After traversing Arizona moving south and westward, I finally arrived at the RVing Nirvana known as Quartzsite, or “Q”, as one mountainside proclaims visually. I had seen a video or three on this place. Seemed cool enough. However, after having the freedom of truly boondocking, this is just a leetle different…

Defining preciousness and value


  So, I bought a campervan.¬† Nothing big, nothing fancy, nothing new. Just new to me. I want to approach this kind of like a fiddler crab, edging sideways towards a new hole in the sand; or maybe a hermit crab, checking a new shell for a better fit, always remembering that it is me…

What do *I* want to do?


A friend of mine recently said ” It doesn’t matter what anyone else wants, what do YOU want to do?”¬† I thought back to what my goals were before Plannus Interruptus (common ailment for plans, no doctor needed).¬† Remember nearly five years ago when I bought an RV and planned on paying off debt and…

“Pooh hasn’t much Brain but he never comes to any harm…”


The Unexamined Life is Not Worth Living A decade. One hundred and twenty months. Three thousand six hundred and fifty days. And so on. ¬†The pain of missing has diminished, except on the days when it has not. Those days have at least become less and less frequent. Philosopher and Poet David Whyte says of…

Looking Back Over My Shoulder -Humanities at (roughly) 450 mph


(Oooh, a fragmented lost in draft post, just found, from earlier this year) Now that was a catchier title than “Getting to know ¬†my fellow air travelers”, was it not? Feet firmly back on the ground from vacation, I’ve been in hibernation from over-socialization. It isn’t that anyone was rude or intentionally draining either. I…

I.C.U.


I need to see her face. She is pale and breathing fast. Darkness colors the hollows under her eyes; not purple, not brown, but some muddy, delicate mix of the two, not unlike some smudged color you would see touted in a new fall palette on sale at Ulta. On the forty minute drive north…

Fleetings


This morning while walking the dog accompanied by a chatty six-year old, he sited a lone yellow flower in the brush ¬†with an exclamation of joy. We walked over and examined it – a cheery yellow face with rings of of minute blood-red pinpricks radiating from the center. ¬†I promised to come back and capture…

The Blossom of Benevolence


In my last post I explained the new direction that my life is taking, and the on-boarding of a little one. What has come to light is the beautiful outpouring of sisterly support for the situation. No, not my sisters, as I don’t have any. ¬†But the Aunts of my grandson, my other daughters. One…

Sacrifice?


What does that word really mean? ¬†The technical meaning is to slaughter an animal, or to offer a person or possession to the Almighty. ¬†Yet I have heard that word related to what I am about to embark upon; the taking on of a six-year-old boy to raise for a while, to help untangle a…

Surviving Face Off, Black Tie Frenzy and Plain Life


Wise words of the day: Image lifted from:¬†http://girlyme.tumblr.com/post/92870248438/filson-wise-words via Pinterest. In case the deafening silence did not clue you in, the months leading up to surgery were quite a struggle for me, and I wrestled with depression, the reality of being alone and often invisible, the roles I fill in the family circle and a…

Things that make me scream, take notice or engage me


Politics. ¬†That’s a screamer for me. I’m happy you have an opinion – please, keep it to yourself. Just for the record I support neither party, registered Independent, and try to vote on issues when I vote. ¬†What’s in the political news lately? ¬†The damned Fast Track Trade agreement. ¬†I’m currently neither for nor against,…

It’s Raining Frogs


‚ÄúPlop.‚ÄĚ The sound came soft and clear from somewhere in the fading dusk. I looked around for what it might be and there, unmoving in the dark, was the shape of a frog. As I approached for a better look it shook off the fall and hopped away. It made me smile. Back to reading.…

Walking into 2015


I remember the times when January 1st was a bleary-eyed sleeping in day. ¬†A day that didn’t require going to work, woohoo! ¬†Those days seem to be¬†long behind me, although if I had television I might still be tempted to watch the ball drop in Times Square. This year my goal was to go to…

At 13 degrees, don’t touch the iced tent sides!


This experience, while considered by many to be slightly insane, is very educational for me. It is an opportunity to learn while learning is optional and not mandatory, or driven by necessity. I’ve known too many people relegated to a lifestyle they didn’t anticipate with no foreknowledge, myself included. The saving grace in my sleeping…

Picking straws


Delicious Fall has fallen upon us for a brief spell and I am relishing it! Doors and sliders thrown open, fans positioned to bring all of that fresh, low humidity air in has really boosted my spirits. It makes working out an invigorating thing rather than a flirtation with heat stroke and misery. ¬†I wrote…

Music, Moving and Mayhem


Briefly dipping my pinkie toe in the blogging world for a moment as the mayhem in my life mounts! First, on moving: I was |this| close to securing a tiny rental house; well, tiny for most standards. ¬†It is more than 4x the size of where I live now. ¬†But, you have to be poised…